Loading.....Please wait.

This is the message that we are all familiar with when using a laptop, cell phone, smart tv. Loading please wait or the dreaded circle in the middle of the screen buffering. Its always when I am in the middle of watching a movie, playing that game/app, trying to shop online, or pretty much anything my heart desires at the moment. I feel like life is a lot like that message of loading.....loading...please wait. Honestly, its I want what I want and I don't want to wait any longer for it. The thing is if I were to get that one thing I am desiring at the wrong time it would fall apart and I would be very disappointed. I am in this place when I pray I want to ask, "Haven't I been buffering long enough?, "Haven't I loaded and waited and waited and waited? The answer I always seem to receive as of right now in my life is still loading...but just a little bit longer. I have always dreamed so big and I can see something beautiful on the horizon but with a giant circle spinning and continuing to buffer. I keep telling myself, "I have made it to this point, Whats a little longer?" Of course I am only lying to my very impatient soul and it seems to be harder the longer the wait, and it seems the desires of my heart are farther away. I have heard all the cliche phrases, "Good things come to those who wait, It will happen when you least expect it, etc. blah blah blah... Those phrases are all true but sometimes I wanna scream when I here people say this. Everyone on the planet is waiting for something, whether it be that job, that true love, that baby, that house, new high score in a video game, new car, for Covid to go away. What ever it may be, everyone is buffering. Everyone has walked their own road and equally know how hard waiting is. That's why its so much harder when the simplest tasks on my phone tell me loading please wait. That's my life story why wouldn't I be waiting for my paint my number app to load! Someday that loading message will go away and my dreams will come true, I just have to be patient and load some more. In the meantime I will look good waiting. To all you out there waiting like me don't give up it will happen. I don't know when/how/where but I know someday everything will be okay.

Till next time!

S.