Love Yourself (its not selfish)

I am in a weird place in my life where I am trying to figure out what is that I am passionate about. I know that someday I want to be married with some kids, but at this moment in my life right now I am unsure what else it is I want in this life. I was feeling incredibly down recently confused and still wanting that one thing that I can't stop thinking about. Its true love, the man of my dreams, and my life to start. The older I have gotten the harder it is to wait for this. The more discouraged I get and asking the question, "Haven't I waited long enough?" Then I remember the guy I am meant to be with may be a hot mess like me trying to figure life out. My brother called me and asked me how I was and it was just tears that wanted to come out. I know me when I have been holding in my feelings for far too long the flood gates suddenly opened and there's nothing to do but let it out. He reminded me of something that I needed to remember. Here I am being upset about being single still, and my body clock is ticking loudly in my ear just knowing my 28th birthday is around the corner. He told me while I was waiting for the one I needed to love myself first, and take care of me and be the best version of me. I have heard this phrase but for some reason it was more clear. The last couple weeks I have been focused on my relationship status, it seems to only bother me. After my brother told me this I realized I have been so focused on it I am miserable. I had stopped doing makeup, wearing jewelry, and forgetting to love myself. I realized he was right, in order for me to fall in love I need to stop being a hot mess and take care of me first, like the man I am meant to be with is probably doing. I woke up with a new perspective I need to stop focusing on my relationship status and do my makeup, wear the jewelry, getting my lashes done, and dye my hair pink. Now I just have to put a smile with all this new perspective. While I am taking care of me and forget my status it will probably happen. God only knows when the right time is, but God knows me that I have to be the best version of me before that man enters my life! God only knows he may be a hot mess too and we both need to be good before we are together! Those simple words encouraged me deeply and meant the world. Taking care of me isn't selfish and I will look good doing so! I will rock this pink hair, lash extensions, makeup, and all the jewelry I own.

Till next time!

S.