Music is good for the soul

Music has always been a huge part of life and I'm the kind the person who really likes any type of music just no rap please. I am that person that plays it way to loud in my headphones (bad for my hearing) but good for my soul. At times in life I feel overwhelmed and discouraged especially when my dreams seem so far away yet so close. When I feel this way instead of screaming into a pillow I blast music way to loud. For some reason its always the most bizarre songs with the weird lyrics that help me the most. Music has a way of saying exactly what I want to say, but am too afraid to admit to anyone out loud. I'm that weirdo that listens to sad music when I'm sad, that listens to love songs when I'm happy. When I'm not sure what my mood is yet I wanna cry I pick the songs with the strangest lyrics that make hardly any sense. For some reason the lyrics make more sense than ever when I'm in a weird mood. This is the only therapy that really will calm me down especially lately. I always find a new song and put it on a constant loop until I get tired of listening to it. Then weeks go by and I play it yet again on a loop. Especially when I'm in the backseat I put my headphones in and play it loud where I can't even hear myself think. Sometimes I wish I could just turn my mind off. Since I don't have that luxury I damage my headphones for it being to loud and my hears ring sometimes. My soul feels content but I feel I was at a loud concert, I guess a loud personal concert. Life has what you call plot twists and half the time life makes no sense, and its always opposite of what we hoped. As I continue down this journey I will keep playing my music way too loud and can't wait for the days where its happy music being blasted!

Till next time!

S.